I was blaming it on physical space, my lack of a home office, until my colleague reported that the grass was no greener in her “dedicated work space”. Her babysitter regularly popped the baby in her office when she had to run to the bathroom or he was whimpering and needed a quick snuggle from mom. And of course, my old colleagues from my former not-so-mommy friendly company say they’d gladly trade in their fancy leather desk chairs and functioning printers for the chance of a quick snuggle with their baby at 3 o’clock in the afternoon.
Now that I work full time at home, some things are better and some things are worse. The personal struggle for the perfect ratio of how much to give to my family life and how much to give to my work life is still there. In fact now I am standing in my dilemma all day and the lines are much blurrier when my work spills onto my kitchen counter or my dinner spills onto my quarterly reports. I am working on creating the boundaries that allow for a good work/life balance and while some are physical, many are emotional.
Working full time from home is not for every mom in the same way that working full time or staying at home full time isn’t for every mom. For now I’ll take the perks of conference calls in pajamas after a long night with the baby and put up with jammed printers in exchange for some extra time at preschool drop-off. And I’ll try not to badger my kids and my husband for news about their day, who they talked to and where they went, since I have been stuck in the house all day!