Today, I remind myself in a few ways of his learning, this awakening that I had, this instruction from a profound source -- that I am only needed to love her. To remember who she is, at a soul level, to love this. To stop focusing and feeding into the addiction.
Today, one thing that helps me to put me in my proper place is to repeat to myself whenever I know I am going to see her or to speak with her on the phone or in person: “I am willing to trust that she is on her Divine life journey, no matter what that looks like to me.” I do not know what it is supposed to look like, and whenever I think I do, I fall apart. I am of no use to her or anyone else.
I have had the opportunity to work with a few other parents who have been in similar situations, who had felt similar emotional breakdowns. This is an area of my coaching which I would like to explore much more. I know that, when I was going through it, I felt like there was no one who understood, no one who had had the experience that I was having, who was in the position to work with me. So I believe there is a need for the parents who have been there to hang around and help others as they enter into it.
There is nothing more important then to connect with another on the soul level, to feel heard, and understood, to feel at one with another is truly a satisfying experience.







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Flag as inappropriate Posted by Victoria on 23rd February 2008