Today I am heading out of the office to an all day team building event. The VP of our organization invited the entire project team to her home for a day of kayaking on the Russian River. We’ve all been working incredibly hard on this project. And I am thrilled that my VP is recognizing us with a day to hang out, bond, and spend sometime outside during work hours. Pretty cool, huh?
We’ve all spent countless hours in front of our laptops. We’ve all lost time with our families, nights, and weekends to ensure that we were successful. It’s wonderful to get appreciated for the hard work. It’s great that we get to go outdoors and do something healthy. I’ve never had a VP who opens her home up, offers a bed for everyone to sleep in, homemade meals, and a relaxing time on a river. It almost sounds too good to be true.
I’m trying hard not to sabotage the day by feeling more pangs of guilt for missing another day with my son. I’ve lost so much time with him over the last month due to this demanding project. I’ve tried not to choke on the guilt. So it’s a little hard to be totally excited about getting to spend another day with my team. It only means another day without my son.
I’m sure that when I’ll get there I’ll have a great time. It’s moments like these that are the best for networking. I’ll get lots of 1:1 time with influential people in my organization all wrapped up into a fun, informal day. It would be downright foolish of me to pass up the opportunity.
I know that participating in today’s events that I am doing what’s best for my career today. But it’s hard not to question if what I am doing is right for my family… Mommy guilt is like toxic waste. It’s going to do its best to try to ruin my day. And I’m going to do my best to ignore it. Nothing is going to stand in the way of my good time.
Except for my terrible kayak skills. But I only have myself to blame on that one.