I had to call my husband after he’d left for work and apologize for being such a - er - not nice person this morning.
I ended up hanging up on him about 15 minutes later.
I’ve had to apologize for my crankiness repeatedly over the last few weeks, and I wouldn’t blame my family if they were starting to doubt my sincerity. I really am sorry and I do intend to be less crabby in the future. Really.
But I’m running out of ways (and time) to relieve a boatload of excess stress right now.
You see, my family and I are 83 days away from making a major life change. We’re moving into an itty bitty RV to travel around the United States for the next year or so. My husband will be leaving his job and my kids will be home schooled for the first time in their lives.
Big. Fat. Changes.
And I’m already stressed a full 83 days before they officially begin.
The preparation stage is starting to take its toll on me. There is a lot to do. Possessions need to be sold, appointments need to be made, paperwork needs to be completed. It seems like every time I cross an item off my to-do list I discover five more things that needed to be added. On top of the stress of all of these tasks, I’m dealing with all of the natural fears and anxieties that come with making major life changes. Oh, and I also have a living to make and a future mobile income for which to prepare.
I know that my super high stress levels are perfectly normal.
Unfortunately, it’s making me a real drag to live with, I’m sure.
I’ve been using all the typical stress management techniques I know. I do a little yoga almost every morning. I take my anti-depressants religiously. I’m eating well, getting plenty of sleep, and taking mental and physical breaks. I even went to the dang spa a few weeks ago!
But I still can’t decide if I want to scream, punch or cry right now.
There are times when stress is unavoidable, it seems. We can breathe and stretch and count to a hundred, but there will still be days when we’re hanging on by our toenails to the edge of sanity. On those days - days like today - I think the only thing left to do is endure.
And tell yourself over and over and over again that this. is. temporary.