I declared this the year of good health . I acknowledged that taking care of myself was better not only for my personal health and happiness, but for my business. I decided to start with small changes, like getting up and doing yoga every morning.
I made it five days in a row.
I don’t even know what happened. I have continued to go to bed at a decent time and get up early, but instead of doing a bit of stretching, I opened my computer and went to work right away one morning. By the time I realized what I’d done, I was pretty solidly into the flow and couldn’t tear myself away for 30 minutes of deep breathing and stretching. Before I knew it, a week and had gone by and I hadn’t so much as touched my toes.
I have all the data. I know why I need to exercise. I made a plan. The only thing standing in my way is me.
Me and my lack of self discipline, it seems.
It’s so frustrating to not be able to stick to the commitments I make to myself, especially because I pride myself on being able to meet my obligations professionally. I never miss a deadline. I may push it to the last minute, but I always do what I’ve told others I’d do. It ticks me off to know I’m not showing myself the same respect.
I know I’m worthy; I’ve read all the mantras and even written articles for clients about how exercise and self care is a reflection of self love. And still I struggle with making the tiny daily sacrifice in order to have the long term results of better health and more energy.
I’m getting stuck somewhere and I can’t figure out where. I need a pill that improves self discipline; I suppose that would defeat the point.