with Talyaa Liera
I'm Talyaa, the poster child for the concept that there's no one right way to be a parent. I went from stay-at-home attachment-parenting mom of four to being the non-custodial parent, working as a professional writer and channel-psychic. Let's talk about throwing away the parenting manual and exploding the myths and mystique of motherhood!
Check out my personal blog at Juxtapositioning.
Things were fine until I read the New York Magazine piece called “All Joy and No Fun” that has people like my friend and fellow writer Madeline Holler talking about it over at Babble.com. But I read this piece (synopsis: Parenting is work! Unless you live in Denmark! Which you don’t so boo hoo! But all these statistics — statistics! —tell us how unhappy we parents are! So hello, why would you even be one??) and everything got quiet.
They were talking about my life.
Examination of the Road Not Taken. Life Before or (God/Goddess/Whatever forbid) Without Kids. Oh, c’mon. We’ve all had those what-if thoughts. Like, What if we could just jump on a plane tonight and go to Paris! (Without worrying about passports, diaper bags, babysitters, or whether Paris has the ONE brand of yogurt that is the only thing your two-year-old will consume besides bananas and bread, which you are pretty sure Paris has.)
Some recent encounters:
1. High school boyfriend (who inexplicably also lives in MY TOWN, nearly 2.5 states and 1000 miles away from the town where he gave me his high school class ring to wear), to me, at a first-time-after-all-these-years reunion lunch, as I am attempting to hand him aforementioned class ring that I have retained all these years and which, judging by his reaction, is now either ON FIRE or has grown several heads: Kids? Me?? No way! Not after working at a preschool one summer.
2. Neighbor, sitting al fresco on the sidewalk at the coffee house across the street, to me, after hearing for the first time that I have FOUR CHILDREN: Four children?? You’re so lucky!
Why these two seemingly polar opposite viewpoints?
I have no idea.
Except that parenting is messy. Once I thought that my experience with parenting was stamped out a millionfold, every parent/family living MY life, having MY experiences, playing MY games and singing MY songs. Together we rocked the parenting universe: co-sleeping, sling-wearing, breast-feeding, blah blah blah. Then I wrote for two years at Babble.com and found out I was what other people called an attachment parenting Sanctimommy. Oops.
Last week I watched Babies. Amazing film. Highly recommended. I loved that I sat in a theater containing a rather high number of college students, and they laughed. They got it. These were universal human experiences we were watching. Babies being, well, babies. Yes, it made me long for mine. The way they melt into you on your lap, immediately and wholly trusting because you are their world. The smell of babies’ heads. The way their eyes light up when you come in the room, for you and only you. Parenting rocks.
Yesterday I talked to my younger three via Skype and webcam. I hadn’t seen their faces in a while, especially Eric’s. I was immediately transported back in time. While I marveled at Eric’s new-found linguistic skills as he showed me the owie on his elbow eight times, I also remembered what it was like to be with all three simultaneously, nobody on the receiving end of 100% of my attention or even 30% in a given moment, so inundated I was by thoughts like 1) What am I making for dinner? 2) Serena has grown out of her pants; can we swing by Target after school? 3) Eric hasn’t had a bath in two days. THOSE EARS. 4) Nathaniel? Track team? You need a physical? What? By Monday? 5) Writing? Ha. Ha. Ha. 6) Thanks, Mr. Ex, for changing the schedule AGAIN. Parenting sucks.
I am convinced that some people make natural parents, and the rest of us make a good stab at it. I would love to say something like, If you don’t love the idea of being a parent, why bother? but I am afraid that would make me a hypocrite. Oh hell, I AM one. When I was 15, I swore I would NEVER have kids, yet four short years later I was tearing up watching Lucy tell Ricky she was pregnant. And here I am again, doing the best I can with what I have.
In the end, isn’t that all any of us can do?
[photo: coscurro, SXC]
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