And here it is:
I want to feel like an awesome mom.
For this Mother’s Day, my kiddo and husband are plotting something and I think they are planning to make me breakfast. I will love that, not the least because I do 99% of the cooking at home and I do gripe about how nice it would be to be served some food. We are also doing a dinner together with all the grandmas and it’s one of my favorite meals we have as a family — I love celebrating all the moms.
But what I really really want is to feel like I am a rockin mom and that’s something that I need to feel from the inside. My biggest struggle as a working mom is that I constantly feel like I’m not doing a great job: as a mom, at work, as a wife, friend, daughter. Last night stuff at work was blowing up and I needed to answer some emails while helping kiddo do homework and practice piano. I could see her looking over at me and I hated that I was on my phone, but at the time that was what I needed to do. But you can bet I didn’t go to bed feeling like an awesome mom. (Of course I know she will be OK and we will make up the time together and life is life and not perfect. But it doesn’t make it easier.)
When I talk to my working mom friends this comes up a lot, in fact, more then the guilt discussion. They feel torn in lots of directions and they don’t feel good about themselves. I am sure moms who don’t work have similar issues just with different circumstances. In fact, the other day one of my friends, who is a stay-at-home mom, told me that she feels like she should be doing a lot more with her son than she is, things like outings and creative projects. We all have high expectations of ourselves, it seems, and maybe that’s why it’s sometimes difficult to feel like we are rocking in.
So that’s my Mother’s Day wish for myself: To give myself a break and to appreciate that I love my kiddo and I do my best to be the most rockin mom I can.
Have you found a way to not be hard on yourself or are you in my camp? Share your thoughts in the comments and have an awesome Mother’s Day!
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