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Bah humbug - annual reviews and other obnoxious things

Feeling really sucky right now.  Had my annual review on Fri.  Did not go well.  Part of it is my fault, yes.  Boss says I need to be more self-sufficient. Translation:  don't bother him with much of anything.  He *is* kind of a key player in this company, and he *does* have a lot on his plate.  But our relationship over the years (7 since I've started) has gone from a fair amt of interaction to almost nil. Which I think is a shame, but I guess that's the way it has to be.  Also, he doesn't think I'm putting in the hours. I leave 1 hr early 1x/wk and a few mins early 2x/wk, both for my son. But I'm not the most prompt arrival in the AMs, again in part due to my son. So he's not convinced I'm making up the time.  I do try to work remotely from home when I can, but I admit I probably don't put in the full 40 hrs.  Also did not get a raise or COLA. Not sure if it's due to my performance or the company's (business has not been good for our company the last couple of yrs).  Company morale is not the greatest these days; even the attempts at social gatherings are totally flat. Xmas party used to be great; now it sucks. Anyway, whether the lack of $ increase is due to me or company -- either way, it sucks b/c (you may recall) hubby has had job issues as his company gets sold. He didn't get a raise either and is on furlough for a second week (he was on furlough for 3 wks in Oct).  Financially, we're doing okay for now. Oh, and I continue to deal with a difficult mother situation (she lives out of state), where her depression (I'm convinced she's depressed) just makes life miserable for all of us.  She doesn't care about our lives and she won't let us care about hers.

I'm angry, upset, and in a way, resigned to it all.