Who knew it would be this hard.
Posted 20th August 2010 by Loren
Well being a teen-mom wasn't in my plans, but it happened. Luckly I have a beautiful son with an amzing man that i love so much. I watch Teen-mom on MTV and I see how their lives are so much harder than mine but I still feel I need to have an episode. If i go out anywhere with my son people stare at me like Im such a bad person. I guess I just have to look the other way about it. My parents were so okay with it which was a relief but my family wasn't! Living with my parents have really helped out alot but its making me crazy. I want to beable to afford my own house and live with me and my family. My dad is overseas for a while and its so depressing that he can't watch his grandson grow up. He wasnt even here when Triston was born. Its so hard to deal with all the sadness while I am staying up late at night and fighting with my boyfriend. It seems that things are getting worse between us but were going to make it work for Triston. We dont go to bed mad at each other ever. We both are stressed out about our living situation and that we have a big responsibility and even if it seems too much we always remind each other that we love each other.
Time to feed Triston and wait on Taylor to get home.
Thanks for reading
<Loren







3 comments so far...
Flag as inappropriate Posted by Loren on 10th September 2010
Flag as inappropriate Posted by Loren on 10th September 2010
Congrats on becoming a Mommy. You are a strong woman and you have been blessed with a little angel. I can tell he is your life and he means everything to you. Living with your parents is not a bad thing, it's enabling you to look to your future while having your "immediate" family enjoy their new arrival. Your family did not give birth to that little miracle and if they aren't "okay" with it then that's their loss. Loren, as a mother I want you to know that I'm happy that you made the decision to take responsibility for your actions and keep your son. A baby is God's way of letting us know that the world should go on. Triston is a cute-a$$ name! My friend spells her son's name Tristan and I think it is so cute! I grew up without a Dad and you need to be grateful that you have one and that you have a father for your baby. Can your Dad access the internet overseas? Send him videos, pictures, and all the love he can handle while he's away. That way he feels like he's a part of Triston's life and feels like he hasn't missed anything. I feel sad and overwhelmed sometimes too... I'm trying to juggle a 9 month old little girl, rent, 5 different utility bills, an overworked boyfriend and my own sanity and sometimes it's hard. Living on your own is stressful and I wish that I had some extra help sometimes but I'm the only one holding this family together. Be the strong woman that I know you are... be calm when everyone else is acting crazy. You are the controller of your own destiny and nobody can take that from you. Make everyday the best day of your life. Seize the moment. Live in the now and spend every minute like you're not promised the next. God loves you and your family and keep him close to your heart. He'll show you the way. Google Section 8 or HUD housing in your area and get on the waiting list if there is one. It's government-funded housing and that might be just what you need. Thank your Mother sincerely for bringing you into this world so that you could give her a beautiful grandson. Life is short and I know I've said like 5 cliche's but I have faith and will never lose it. The bible says "Ask and you shall receive." Ask Him and let him affect your next move. Peace and Love Loren... Peace and Love ~Jesi 21/f/StL
Flag as inappropriate Posted by Jesi on 5th September 2010