Friendless, lonely, and no one to talk to.
I signed up for workitmom today because I don't have any friends. The friends I DID have before I had my baby were party-animals and I don't want to go back to that life. I've moved on and started my family. I wouldn't call it post-pardum depression because I don't sleep my day away, I eat regularly, and I don't think about suicide. I just cry a lot. I'll be sitting here, wondering where my life went and start balling. I'll call the people I thought were my friends and they don't answer anymore. My mom tells me she's my friend but she doesn't understand the loneliness... I tried the stlmoms.com website and not even THEY wanted to talk to me. I'm hoping to find someone who's going through the same thing. My baby is my life and is the only thing that makes me smile so when she's asleep, I just feel so alone. I can't call and vent to anyone, I can't drive anywhere because my car isn't running... I just sit here in self-pity wondering what happened to everyone who used to care about me... I guess when you're not drinking yourself to death or smoking yourself into stupidity, nobody wants to be cool with you. I'll bet myself $5 that nobody responds to this blog because I really feel like this is the lowest I've ever been... mentally, I'm drained... I wish on my fallen eyelashes that God will bring someone into my life that will lift my spirit and talk to me like they care and be the "shoulder" for me to cry upon when everything falls to pieces... I'm gonna go now... still friendless, lonely and have no one to talk to.