I frequently visit Work It Mom, but never really seem to have anything to contribute. Today seems to be one of those days that I want to throw something out there into the vast virtual world - just to have it swallowed up in the cosmic unknown. Today I want to be able to shed my e-tears.
This morning I was getting my boys ready for school, (one in Kindergarten, who we'll call A5, and the other in 3rd, who we'll call A8). So it's a bit chilly, and I pull out a hoodie for A8 and a light jacket for A5. A5 started to get upset that he didn't have a "hoodie" but a jacket. I myself was heading out the door minutes before their bus is scheduled to pick them up. So feeling impatient and my anger rise, I told him "NO". He, of course, began to cry.
Drama ensued. I sent him to his room for the next 5 minutes, through which he cried at the top of his lungs. I was just too angry at this point to console him, even though a part of me was saying I shouldn't send him off this way.
I was just so angry at him for making such big deal - over nothing. Two nights ago, A5 had thrown a fit just because I wanted him to go take a shower and get ready for bed. So it just seemed like one thing on top of another.
I sent him off to school crying and upset. I emailed his teacher, and he seems to be just fine. So of course, it's just me feeling bad. I try my best to be a good mother, but days like this, I feel like I've undone every effort I've put in.