I actually feel terrific with my kids. I've been getting back to church and working my way back to where I'm supposed to be or should be. I'm so thankful the lord has been patient with me. NO I'm not perfect by any means and I'm always sinning, but my heart is truly in the right place. I want to be in love again, both ways. Crazy as it sounds meaning though in love with the Lord again and in love with my connection here. I know I'm so overwhelming, but I'm so full of passion, love, compassion, and I want what I want.