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Many times I feel really guilty for taking time to do things for myself. Blogging is something I consider a guilty pleasure. It makes me feel really good to write about things that matter to me. It helps me get it off my chest. Sometimes it really helps to be able to look back on my life later on and see how much I've improved on something or remember how much things have changed so I feel like I'm making progress.

I think what I might try doing more of is making deals with myself more often. If I do something progressive around the house or workout a little or get a goal accomplished, I'll reward myself with some indulgance time on the computer.

 The problem is that when I try to do this currently, what ends up happening is I can't sleep because I'm having too much fun playing on the computer and trying to get my me time in and then I lose sleep over it.

There is something about the time when the baby and the hubby go to bed, the whole house is nice and quiet and I can actually focus on a task without interruptions. It is sooo liberating! When the night comes and everyone else goes to sleep, sometimes (more times than not latley) I get ramped up instead of tired and then I spend hours picking up the house and doing computer stuff.

I do a lot of research and work on the computer for which I do get paid for so when I get the time occasionally to do anything on the computer that is just for fun for me personally, it seems like all I do is veg out on the computer.