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Today was one of those days that just starts out wrong and goes from bad to worse.

I woke up in a bad mood after having a nightmare. My snippy mood made my husband snippy, too and both boys got up whinging and fussing and started fighting as soon as they saw each other.

 A million little things were irking me, so I just got to work cleaning up and trying not to talk to anyone. My toddler was crying and hanging off my leg, wanting something that he couldn´t stop crying long enough to tell me. THe baby was screeching and trying to eat dirt. It was a lousy start to the day.

My husband left for a gig at 10 . . . he´s usually here all day. And before he left, my toddler went down for a nap, but hasn´t slept, he´s just in there fussing and banging toys together and I simply don´t have the energy to deal with him right now.

But the absolute worst thing is that I got an email from my sister saying she can´t help me with my money.

See, I live in Guatemala and I have a PayPal account that goes through my sister´s account and she sent me a card to take money out down here. I just transfered over a month´s earnings two weeks ago, but then couldn´t take the money out. Turns out that it´s illegal for me to have the card and they cancelled the account. She´s working 6 am to midnight and can´t help me and doesn´t have access to the money . . . so basically, we´ve been getting food and diapers and milk on credit, against money that just isn´t coming.

I´m so frustrated and depressed right now. Feeling like it really isn´t worth working if I can´t have access to my own money! And no solutions are readily evident. I know we´ll figure it out at some point, but I´m so sick of not having the ability to take out my money and just go buy food for my kids!