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Taking A Risk

Those who know Scott and I well know that we have had our fair share of ups and downs. At one point we both became so unhappy that I decided I needed a break, time away from Scott and the stress of our relationship. So I packed up my stuff, and moved myself and Jaxon to our own house. It was the hardest and easiest thing I ever did. Scott and I lived seperately for six months, for me it was a time of healing and personal growth. I had never been on my own before, let alone pregnant with my second child and with a seven month old baby. What I found out about myself over those six months was empowering, I could take care of myself and Jaxon, emotionally, and financially. I also found out that I wanted to be with Scott, he was the father of my children and I wanted to give it another go, I was determined (and without a lot of support) to make it work.

In November we decided that Scott was going to move into my home, and we were going to be a family. In December Scott became very sick, so sick that he was in the hospital for quite sometime, and at one point the ICU. I would go and visit him various times throughout the day, I would sing to him, hold his hand, wash his face. When he woke up it was the best day of my life. The following months were up and down, full of highs and lows, but almost six months later we are stronger and Scott is healthier than ever. Sometimes you need a break to step back, re-evaluate your situation, and figure out what you want. Leaving Scott was the best thing I could of ever done for myself and our family, it made me a stronger women, a better mother, and a better partner (you'll have to confirm that with Scott :)) Don't be afraid to make the decision that is nagging your heart, you might come out better on the other side!