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1 part Logical & 1 part Emotionally Insane

Women are very interesting creatures, especially when they

are women but they have a semi-man like mentality of thinking in areas. Please

allow me to explain but embarrassing myself a little for your reading pleasure.

When it comes to work and life, in general, I have a very “man-centered”

thought process. I work as a programmer because I think much more logically

than I do creatively and I fit in well with men in my career than I do with

women. Not that I have anything against women, but my thought processes are

just…different. I’m a take-charge-get-things-done kind of gal and I like order

and processes and I thrive off of challenge. I often get called “bitchy” and “cold”

because when dealing with work, I deal with work. Yes, I do have my moments of

gossiping about our raises or the conditions of our working, but for the most

part I tend to really work as a man, in a man’s career.

That being said, it’s amazing how polar opposite I am when

it comes to work and life.

I had all but an emotional breakdown last night over the

mere thought that I may or may not have done something to hurt my friend’s

feelings to the point where she wasn’t returning any of my calls for the past

week or so. This is my same friend, my best friend, who has been with me

through thick and thin for the last 7 years or so. She was with me through

losing my daughter and the birth of my son and everything in between! I had

called her a few times last week and more specifically, once the day before

yesterday and left her voicemails asking her to call me back. No call. Finally,

yesterday I called her cell and her home and left her a voicemail on both telling

her that I didn’t’ know what was going on, but if I didn’t anything to make her

mad, I’d like to talk.

I sat and I stewed for hours, thinking. What on earth could I

have done to her?! I cried thinking that somehow some misunderstanding has

happened and I’m about to lose this person that means the world to me, I mean

my god, she’s the only person I contact on a daily basis besides my husband. I

cried at work twice and once while giving my son a bath, to which he said, “Mommy

no cry, kissy!” as he splashed me.

Finally, last night, about 9pm, my phone rings and I hear

the South Carolina Gamecock ring tone and I know it’s her!! My stomach is in

knots and my eyes already start filling up with tears and I answer the phone.

What was I so torn up about? What was the huge misunderstanding that was going