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What happened to me? I used to weight about 130-138 pounds, and I felt wonderful. Of course I thought I was fat then too. I guess I've never been happy with my body! I could kick myself, because when I look at those pictures now I looked great! What I wouldn't give to be that size again! Now 2 1/2 years later I weight in at 165 pounds. I am on cholesterol medicine, anti-anxiety, and acid reflux. How did this happen to me? I'm not lazy, I clean houses for a living. I have 4 very active kids, and I am constantly doing something! Now no matter what I do I can't lose weight!!! I am so frustrated, the most I have ever gotten down to is 155 pounds. But then I stick, get mad, and give up! I'm 36 years old and have never had this problem until now! I had always lost weight rather quickly. My Dr. told me the usual, eat right, and exercise! He did however do bloodwork, which I was sure would show thyroid issues! But as luck would have it, my thyroid is just fine. And exercise is just not something I enjoy. But apparently I'm going to have to learn to enjoy it. When I see myself in the mirror after a shower, I want to cry. I feel like I have just let myself go, but I take pride in what I look like. I fix my hair, put on make-up, dress nice, but then there's my body. I don't feel healthy anymore! But I feel hopeless because losing weight seems so complicated now. I don't even know where to start! I've given up on 130 pounds, but I do want to be healthy. And to do that I must lose weight!! Does anybody have any advice that might help me get through this hurdle!