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I went out tonight with two goals in mind - (1)hit the ATM on the way to (2)teach yoga.  There was a ton of traffic so I had to skip the ATM on the way.  Instead, I opted to go by on the way home. 

Taught two classes tonight and they were fantastic.  I was on cloud nine by the time I got in the car.  The energy, the relaxation, the thrill.  Amazing.  Then I stopped by the ATM.

I panicked.  Shaking, almost crying.  Sitting in the drive thru knowing I need to deposit these checks and get some cash back and I'm a mess.  I did it.  I deposited and withdrew but I needed to pull over and try to get back to that space I had been in ten minutes before. I couldn't find the space.  I felt like someone would jump out of nowhere and attack. 

 I'm over it now, a few hours later, a little meditation, talk to the hubby, have a cocktail.  But how long will it go on?  It's been what, two weeks since the mugging?  STOP.  And this is all rhetorical b/c I know it will take time.  I know I'll have to just get through it.   I was just overwhelmed that i could finally go w/out a day with anxiety and then have it come over me faster then ever.