glee and anxiety
I've started a new project. I'm writing -- for PAY!
I love it. I want to be a writer, and now I'm writing!! Every time I see another post with my name on it, I get a little charge. ZING! Lookit ME!
But ... I can't give up my day job while I pursue this. I'm the primary income-earner in this household. So, for a couple of years, I'm probably going to be adding more and more writing, while still managing the day job.
I've found the last two weeks to be REALLY stressful. Or perhaps 'stress' isn't quite right. I've been anxious. How will I fit it all in? If this one contract is taking up so much time (and it IS), how will I survive doing this full-time? (I have some answer to this, BTW, but it's the anxiety I've been feeling.) And how on EARTH will I manage, a year or so from now, when I have my current full-time job AND an almost-full-time writing career?
I have no interest in working 90 hours a week. Never have. But I think I might have to do just that for a while.