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I have BIONIC paranoia. I am super-familiar with this scenario, and I second-guess myself all the time. BUT, I don't let it interfere with doing the best I can. I think that if you concentrate on doing the best work you can, the rest will take care of itself, or it won't.

I would suggest you get a pen and paper journal so you can write all of this out. When I write it all out, I start to realize that it's okay and it's going to be fine.

It also sounds like you, like me, are not totally convinced yet that you can make it on your own. But only time will tell.

I would also write on a notecard, and put it up so you can see it frequently throughout the day, "I am good at what I do, and I deserve the opportunities I have." The power of positive thinkingc canNOT be over-stated.

Good grief. You don't need therapy. Maybe a cigarette or a Bloody Mary, but you'll be fine.

Ok, I am just going to pick out the one thing you wrote and respond to it because (1) I REALLY understand you and (2) we women do this to ourselves all the time: Something about me sees myself in this perfect job and thinks, I do not deserve this. He will figure that out eventually and then what the heck am I going to do?

He hired you. He is not dumb. HE thinks you can do the work. You did awesome work when you worked with your firm - remember your article about how colleagues with more experience started to ask you for your opinions? This is what I a call an entrepreneur's (and I think of you as an entrepreneur - freelancer, it's to me the same thing) crisis of confidence. I have them ALL THE TIME. But you have to fight them. You have to keep telling yourself that if someone hired you they believe you are great and then you have to overcome this ridiculous thing we do to ourselves and convince yourself that you're great and you can do it. I know this is probably not specific enough to be helpful (and a little Oprah- self-helpy) but I totally relate to what you're going through.