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I'm a single mom with a two-year-old. One of the things I struggled with the most when I divorced my husband is that I was potentially shutting the door on siblings for my daughter -- I have always wanted a large (not huge, but large) family. It was, in fact, one of the few things I cried about.

HOWEVER -- I also know that, realistically, I cannot afford another child on my own. Financially, I'm sure I would make it if I already HAD two or more children, but I would not intentionally add one to the mix. Emotionally, I would be even more spread thin than I am now. Logistically, I rely a lot on family to help me take care of my daughter, and adding another one would feel like adding a burden for them to bear. Morally, I already feel guilty about raising a child without her father, and I would not want to do that to another sweet little baby.

I don't pretend to know you or your situation, but those are just a handful of the reasons I know that I should not have another child at this time. But those last three words are key: at this time. I am 30, and I know I don't have a lifetime of fertility ahead of me. However, I trust that if and when the timing is right, I will know it. You sound like you may be speaking out of fear here (at least in part), and I have found that the decisions I have made out of fear are seldom very good ones.

I hope this was helpful, and I wish you all the best.