Are you making New Year resolutions? What are they?
So thinking back about 2008, incredibly difficult to do. I loved the year because of Prayse. She is as always my shining light. I love being a Mama, best job in the world. There were a lot of bright moments this year, I’m not sure why the tough times seem to dull the good. My natural personality I’m sure, something I undoubtedly need to work on. But let’s try. The Good:
- Found a fantastic daycare for Prayse. She LOVES it. Loves the teachers, loves the other kids, has grown by leaps and bounds. The daycare is literally a one minute drive from the office which allows me to go play with her.
- My job. Do I still struggle? Uh huh. A lot. Is my job perfect? No way in hades. But they are as understanding as any organization I believe. I am able to work from home on Fridays which both allows us to afford the previously mentioned daycare and gives me an extra day with my P.
- I have learned to appreciate my family in a whole new light. They have sacrificed enormous amounts of time and money for me this year. They have changed their plans at a moments notice to spend time with Prayse and watch her while I pursue a long-term dream of my own. That is awesome and something not to be taken for granted.
- I have had friends from my past come back into my life. The cycle of friendship is often times hard, especially for me because I really don’t know how to be a sort of friend, I always want to go all out, put my heart on the line and then get hurt. But this year I’ve been rebuilding some bridges simply because the timing was right, and our lives are once again in similar places. I like that.
- Prayse. Enough said.
I saw a new side of my husband this year as well. Not to say it was a new side of him, but I allowed myself to fully see and accept who he is. Who is he? A dreamer. I always knew he was, but truth be told it drove me nuts sometimes. Know why? Because we both were growing into who we are and maturing. He was a dreamer who was still learning to execute. I was a doer who was still learning to dream. He still keeps dreaming, but is now actively pursuing a few of them and listening, seeking advice and following through. He is now actively including his family in those dreams. I allowed myself to fully think outside of the box. Think outside of the things that other people said I was good at and listened to what I thought I could be good at. Then… the scariest part… I started to pursue. My hubs? Said, “I’m in. What do we need to do?” That evening was the turning point in our marriage. Never easy from there, but we both were committed and we’ve been slowly climbing the mountain together. It’s a good feeling.