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Pandora's Box

Posted 13th October 2007 by Kimberly

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I'm feeling a bit unsettled. Like my personal pandora's box is sitting in front of me, just waiting to be opened.

My ex-fiance, the man I all but left at the altar 10 years ago, just popped up on Facebook.

I'm not sure why this has me so unsettled. I'm very content with my life. I like me, and I like what I've created for myself and my kids.

But...

This was my one serious boyfriend (I'm baaad at serious). My one flirtation with the white picket fence. The fairy tale.

I don't want that. I rejected firmly a decade ago and I've never looked back. Problem is, now he's right in front of me.

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  • hey, at least you're putting it out there to see in black and white just how you're feeling. If it's a mutual friends profile you can bet he's tried to see yours. But I can be as sure as I am about my ex's, he's likely having the same sort of internal battle, to some degree. It's human nature. It's ok to wonder, it how you proceed with that feeling that will dictate how you proceed with your future. Besides, who said fantisizing was a crime (good or bad). As for life, I'm still waiting on the official manual.

    Flag as inappropriate Posted by on 13th October 2007

  • I blogged about it, but essentially, no Mandy, I wasn't looking for him. He popped up on a friend's profile. And it's a bit more complicated than just an Ex. I called off our wedding 2 months before the date. For a variety of reasons, none of which was that I didn't love him or that he didn't love me. Life is complicated.

    Flag as inappropriate Posted by Kimberly on 13th October 2007

  • I found one of my ex's last year on Myspace. I added him only to find out he was leaving for Iraq two months later. It wasn't bad that I found him, but he's changed so much already since he's been over there. The only ex's I would care to know, I care about as friends. I wonder what COULD'VE been, but that's not what IS so it doesn't really matter. I'm happy where I am and I couldn't see my life being any better with either of them.

    Flag as inappropriate Posted by Marcia on 13th October 2007

  • Soooo tempting. I understand how curiosity could definitely get the better of you. I know what I would do...but it might be different for you...I would ruuuuuun! I don't do well with mingling with the ex.

    Flag as inappropriate Posted by mamajama on 13th October 2007

  • Nataly's got a point but curiosity is hard to curb. Hmm, were you looking for him? Did he find you? You don't have to answer those to me; just look at the circumstances. Just b/c you're happy and content now doesn't mean you can't say hi. I just found some old friends on myspace b/c I was curious (none were boyfriends exactly but I cared about them deeply) and am glad to see where they are and share where I am. When you share a bond with someone , whatever that point in life was, it's great to be able to be supportive in their happiness/trouble. We all grow up/move on/have changing circumstances. You'll make the right decision for you. Ha, I sound all psychology-major on you, but my point is that it's great you wrote this note and are working through it and willing to put up with comments from people you don't know!

    Flag as inappropriate Posted by Mandy Nelson - Dandysound on 13th October 2007

  • Wow, can't even imagine that. The only thing I can say is don't do anything for a bit, just let your thoughts settle...

    Flag as inappropriate Posted by Nataly on 13th October 2007

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