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Well Alvin told me that we neede to talk.  That scared me a little, because he is not a talker.  We have a good line of communication between us, but my husband is still NOT a talker.  But I had a feeling what he wanted to talk about.  MOVING.........

For the last 15 years, this man has said that he hates Ohio and wishes he never came back.  He went to the ARMY for 12 years and returned to Ohio (his birthplace) and choosing not to re-enlist.  Had he not returned, we would not be together now.  But that is me being romantic!  He HATES Ohio and everything about it.  His family is here and his children.  I thought that those two things would make him change his mind, but NOT.  Every couple of years, we have this talk again. 

I am not helping matters because I seriously felt we should stick around for the sake of our families.  But that thought process has gone to the birds, because we really do not have that much contact with them.  We are both the oldest, but his brother and my sister have way more contact with our respective parents.  I also did not want to uproot Amanda while she is in school, but she is in 8th grade now.  She would have to go to a new school for high school next year anyways, why not make it in a new state?  I have a job that I have been at for over 5 years that I really like and make a good living.  I would have to start all over..........  I was an ARMY brat when I was younger and we moved alot.  I guess I just wanted to stay somewhere stable, even though I have moved alot in Ohio. 

My husbands peace of mind should take precedence right now.  He is a truck driver and sees so much on the road.  He wants to go to North Carolina or Virginia or Florida.  Pretty states and I guess not that much different from Ohio.  At least our winters would not be so unbearable.  I am soooo over snow, right now.

Alvin also wants me to seek professional help in getting over so ill feelings I have been harboring about my SIL!!  I don't hate her, but I have no desire to speak to her anymore.  She use to be my best friend and I hooked her up with my BIL.  Ever since, our relationship has gone to hell.  Alot of faking on my part, because she acts like she is Queen Bee around my in-laws.  Alvin and I have no children together.  She and my BIL got pregnant less than 30 days after meeting!!!  Anyways, Alvin is right that I need to let that go and move on.  It just makes me sad.