When I first had my daughter, (well, and to be honest, my entire pregnancy) I spent night after night crying myself to sleep. I worried I wouldn't be able to care for this little person that was completely dependent on me. I have always worked two or three jobs at a time - not entirely possible when there's a little person clinging onto you. How would I make a house payment, car payment, insurance, groceries, gas, electricity, etc...and then I just realized that whether I liked it or not, bartending at night wasn't going to work anymore. I started sending my daughter to a five-day daycare and continued my 9-5 job that I go to to "pay the bills," and then spend my evenings absorbed in my little mini-me.
My 9-5 job, unfortunately, is my family business. And, although it's not what I want, I'm stuck trying to help my mom with her "baby."
I want to be a stay at home mom. But, you know, that would require me winning the lottery.
I'm overwhelmed most of the time. Sometimes, I don't open the mail until the day before a bill is due- sometimes after. I'm in denial most of the time - hoping my ship will come in - but all the time being mostly content with life.
I think to myself - does anyone truly enjoy their jobs?