I am going thru this too. All though the intensity has decreased. My daughter is 2.5 years old now. I wanted to leave job the day I found out I was pregnant. But things just didnt work out & job wise life kept getting difficult for my husband, so I had to keep working. Luckily the 1st year she stayed at home with either one of her grandmas who both dote on her. (I cant believe they both agreed to move in with us for months at a time!!) But I never really connected with her. I hated the feeling of not being fully responsible for her. I hated not knowing what each little expression of her face meant. This was the single biggest contributor to my dissatifaction with the way I was handelling motherhood. Luckily when she turned 1 yr I was able to stay at home for 5 months and it was wonderfull. Then my hubby lost his job and I am back to work again for the last 1 year. She goes to a daycare now & is learning a lot of stuff and enjoys the friendship of kids her age. Also, a friend kindly explained to me that my daughter will need me even more when she grows up. She will have so much to discuss from sleepovers to boys to career choices. So I may miss a part of this but I am looking to share a deep bond with her when I can re experience the things that I have enjoyed thru her eyes. I pray that I am there to enjoy all this. Also, 1 thing to keep in mind, if u r bread winner of the family or even a significant contributor to family income, know that without ur job u wont be able to get her all the things that she needs.
Hang in there!! Everything I do is for my baby. this thought carries me thru toughest times!