It took about 3 months, but I got there. I have gotten to the point where it's a total waste to even try to breastfeed. I was having trouble producing enough from the beginning and I did everything they told me to. She had a perfect latch and I fed on demand. When I went back to work we had to supplement with formula, but I expected that. I try to pump every 3 hours or so, and I generally can. My production has been dropping for weeks. At first, I was producing 6 ounces per sitting, then 5, then 4, and then came today. I pumped for half an hour and preduced a whopping 2 ounces. Yeah, because that will feed my 3 month old for a total of 3 minutes.
I have taken my weight in Fenugreek and have drank Mother's Milk Tea until I couldn't take it anymore. I drink tons of water and eat healthy, but I just can't do it. I have failed yet again. It just adds to the list of things that I messed up:
1. I was supposed to have a boy, but had a girl
2. I wanted an all natural water birth, but ended up having a planned c-section
3. I wanted to be a stay at home mom, but instead I work 45 hours a week and commute almost an hour each way, I am generally away for about 12 hours every day.
and now:
4. I wanted to breastfeed until she wanted to stop, but now I can't even breastfeed for the recommended 4 months.
I am officially a horrible mother.
