Happy Mothers Day!

There is much to be said for Sunday being a day of rest. I suppose that if Monday didn't follow it I would have enjoyed my day much more.  I know that one of my biggest challenges in this life is to figure out a way to except the fact that I will be working for the rest of my natural life.  I have two toddlers and I am finding it very difficult to send them off everyday for the daycare to raise.  I suppose that a large part of my frustration is also that my husband works out of home but in a job that is part time in nature.  This job that we move 3 hours away from our family and friends for will never pay our bills. This job that he went back to school, earned a masters and put us in $60,000 in debt for will never pay our bills but is a way for him to get the experience to eventually, several years from now get a job which will make better money.  I went back to back only about 3 weeks after moving here. As a nurse I found a job quickly but I don't really want to be a nurse.  It is sad really that I am a college graduate, with a health business degree that I have never been able to use. I love my husband and my children but I am tired of working as hard as my Dad did when I was growing up.  I may not be a lonely wife because my husbands always gone but I am a lonely working woman because I am always working.  When I was single & childless my career was my priority.  Now that I am married with children my career is not where my heart is.  My heart is in a daycare center all day and sometimes I get to see in the evenings and weekends and sometimes not.  I hate myself for getting into this situation.  I feel trapped in a lifestyle that I hate while my friends are quitting their jobs and staying home to raise their families.