Selfishness

 Yesterday was my daughter's first birthday party. We invited all the family out because that's what all the other first birthdays in the family included. Saturday night, my mom's dog snipped at one of the kids because for one, she never saw the kid, and another, the kid kept getting in her face with his. There was a calling for the death of my mom's dog who has been a large part of our family for over 6 years. She didn't hurt the kid and the kid was warned several times that you can't get in the face of a strange dog, no matter who's it is.  Anyways, the tension was thick. I was torn between my family and my hubby's.

 Sunday just an hour before the party was supposed to begin, I was in tears trying to prevent anything from happening and I definately did NOT want company. The party ended up being a segregated kind of thing where his family was in one room and mine were outside with all the kids. Instead of everyone being together for the 'happy' occasion, they were more worried about arguing about the dog. I was so upset. I hardly got any pictures of anything. I sped through the presents, no birthday song, no candle even. I hurried to get her cake so she could mush it up and play with it so everyone could return to their respective sides of the house. It was just so selfish to me that the day ended up having such negative air. This was MY daughter's FIRST birthday party. It was ruined. It's irreplaceable. I'm thinking to have her a piece of cake with her candle tonight. Today is her birthday. I need to do something to get some nice pictures and change the feeling toward the party.