You're right. I know you get used to it. I just wish I didn't have to. Still pursuing other options, like finding more writing gigs. I'm a writer - I know I can do this. It's just the insurance I'm worried about.
Leaving/ not leaving has nothing to do with trust of day care providers. It has to do with my issues of caring for him. And feeling backed into a corner over it all.
I was pretty miserable when I had to go back to work after my leave. It took quite a while to get used to it, and to be honest, I still have rough days, especially when I have to send her into daycare when I know she's not feeling well, or when they call me up to get her because she's sick - I feel like I've failed her somehow. But most days are good. You get used to the schedule after a while.
We had our nanny start a week before I went back to work. The first day when I left her with our daughter I hid in the hallway outside of our apartment the entire time (3+ hours). The second day I went outside and stood in the courtyard for a few hours. :) It's definitely not easy -- but eventually it became a bit easier.
Since it's been longer than 6 weeks for me, I guess I've gotten past the sleepless nights and had more of a chance to see what it's like to be home with him. And I panic when I think about leaving him with someone else all day long. He's almost 6 months old and he's only been with me and his father.
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Leaving/ not leaving has nothing to do with trust of day care providers. It has to do with my issues of caring for him. And feeling backed into a corner over it all.
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